Sunday, October 22, 2006

dang it!

So I have not had any caffeine all week. Was doing great. Then on Sat. I was cutting firewood with a friend and when we were done he offered me a Pepsi. I was really thirsty and did not even think twice. As I took my first long drink it hit me, "This has caffeine!!" It amazes me how much caffeine is simply a part of our society and our daily lives.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Going strong

Still going strong without caffeine. No headache this morning, and I am pretty jazzed about that. There have been a couple of times that I almost broke down and had a coffee.

I have actually been surprised at how hard it is to say decaf instead. It seems that I think people will look down at me for kicking the habit. Coffee is such a social thing. This makes me wonder, how much of the rest of my life is controlled because I am concerned that others will think differently of me.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006


Seems that blogging is much more of a discipline then I expected. Seems that I don't have many things in my life that I am having success with discipline.

Have decided to give up caffine. I am now on day three. Have been having headaches, seems that I consumed more caffine then I let myself believe.

I did my first 24 hour fast, which covered two meals, breakfast and lunch. All I had was water. I was actually surprised that I made it. I really believe that it was only because I focused and prayed when I thought of food.

Also noticed that I have a bit more of an angry spirit then I want. Richard Foster said in Celebration of Discipline, that what is inside you will come out during a fast. He said that if we are angry then we quickly attribute that anger to the hunger, when in fact it is an angry spirit. Not sure I really like that but as I look at myself I begin to wonder if it is true indeed.

For some reason I am really feeling lead to a longer fast. Just need to get ready for it. 40 days. That is a really long time. The scary part is that I have had no disciplines in my life for some time now. Am trying to gradually get them in. Just need to make sure that they are for the right reason, drawing me closer and pointing me towards Christ.

Who knows, maybe I will become more disciplined about my blogging.